#106 - Culmination

Last night, the epitome of awesomeness.

Awesome people.

Awesome dance party.

Awesome night.

It'd been some time since all hell broke loose. I lost my mind yesterday in that wonderful hyped up atmosphere. Yeah, I attended NJCBS Formal Dinner last night. I really couldn't express much on  how I felt last night. Being able to dance on the stage, amounting up to around 50+ songs, with so many people watching you. This can never be better. One of my life goals is to be able to express myself in front of others on stage and give them my best. I wouldn't say I gave my best yesterday, but nevertheless, it was too memorable. To be dancing to people and them dancing back at you, how rare these opportunities are. 

I've seen so much, heard so much, felt so much. I couldn't go any higher than that yesterday. I was like at the peak of the day, being hyped up, and high up. The atmosphere was simply good, with people joining in the dance and that's when you see who are the potential people who can bring you fun when going clubbing with them. Did I mention I was flying in the air for once? Okay, I think I didn't. That was mad crazyyyyy. My mind was already flying high up and then I was carried and spun in the air for like 10 times. First time in my life I'm flying! (: 

I really miss boarding, and I kind of regret not taking a lot of pictures yesterday. I miss waking up at 645am instead, and then having breakfast. I miss rushing to tap fingers together with 12. I miss those nights after dinner, when we played saboteur etc. I miss the formal dinner.

I miss so many things. These are what I've brought away from boarding and I wish that in return, NJCSB has received my love! Haha.

Can't think of anything else to say. 

Let the pictures talk.

Hockey Family' 2012/13

<3

Hockey Guys team, plus GRACE & SYAFIQAH!

Oops, and JOAN. C. 

Classmates' 12. 

I know I should have gotten that bow tie to match my attire. Nevermind, next year's Prom gonna be good. 

Hockey Dudes (:!

With my bro, Chunyi! (: The best friend you can ever find!

Yeah, sorry for the outdated picture!

NJC ETUDE, Band concert. (:

(": Cheers & Happy Holidays~

#105 - Board. Boarding. Boarded.

`Tonight,
We are young
So let set the world on fire,
we can burn brighter,
than the sun~


Looking back, three weeks ago. 

I made my way along the long stretch of road that extends to the entrance of boarding. 

Yes, I'm boarding right now, and tomorrow is my last day of boarding. Feelings? I guess it's pretty mixed, considering the various boons and banes of boarding. Reduced travelling time, something I've always wanted, but I guess the saying that good things and bad things always go in pair still stands. With daily programmes, I hardly see any difference in managing time. Sieving out extra time seems like find needle in a haystack. I constantly see myself being unable to resist the temptations of the bed. Yeah, it has been calling for me ever since the first day I boarded. I'm always in a dilemma, to complete my homework while being fully exhausted by daily programmes, or to sleep. 

Whatever it is, I still passed my days well, I guess.

Boarding, a brand new dawn, and the homework also started piling in since it's the end of the semester. I guess I really need to start working hard after receiving setbacks that come in subsequently. Each blow is a new wake up call. Carelessness, and nervousness, my present obstacles. I thought carelessness was well controlled, after all it really was. Yeah, and if you didn't catch that, my carelessness IS back. 

Simple.
I need to start spending more time on my academics given that seasons are over even though I know that more trainings await me in the june holidays. Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, days that I'd be sacrificing for hockey. Stamina has been going low in the recent days, that kind of saddens me. I want to get back my peak stamina. Being a well balanced athlete student may not seem easy, but I guess I'll have to spend my time in june wisely and work out something which can help me manage my time more efficiently.

Everything takes time and time is limited, it flies. Yeah, tomorrow is the last day of boarding, as I've said. I'm really looking forward to it. Everything at your own comfort zone, I really miss sleeping at home. It actually gets really inconvenient if you have a room mate because you have to respect one another. For that, I've made myself more disciplined and respected my room mate. Everyone has different lifestyles after all. 

I hope tomorrow's dinner going to be good. Formal dining, I got myself the clothes that I want even though they are mismatching for the dinner. I should have gotten that wine red chinos. Well, I'll settle for a beige-mustard one after all, since it's what I've been yearning for since last year. 

With boarding and leadership symposium for the last few weeks, I've spent less in school. However, my savings still amount to zero. I can't seem to be able to manage my expenses well. I'm always overspending on my meals, eating too much, with days that ended with 7 meals. I really need to control what i eat and how much I save. If my friends can save $100 per month, so can I. Of course, I will not starve myself. :/

It's really humid here in boarding that I'm visiting the bathhouse 3 times per day. Guess I won't have to experience that any more. (:  

Shall spend the holidays ahead well.

Academics.

Project Work.

Hockey.

Rest.

Let's do this! (:

#104 - What doesn't kill you make you stronger

At the end of every tunnel, there's always light. 

Walking through this tunnel, the darkness that surrounds you, creates an anticipation of sudden fear.

Darkness, the obstacle, but once you've overcome your obstacle, seventh heaven.

Obstacles, I've been faced with them frequently. Yet, I tell myself, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. 

Overcoming obstacles, one of the greatest challenge in my life. The past week has been slightly good, just that every rise comes with a little setback. Each time I become more disciplined, I face a little dissatisfaction.

I've not been performing well enough for my academics, and time is the main issue. I need to get myself to keep calm and carry on. Well, after all these trivial setbacks, I guess it's really time to move on and be a better me. I'll have to spend more time with myself, my academics and CCA, rather than with trivial issues. Constantly reminding myself, there comes a point in life when I get tired of chasing everyone and fixing everything, but it's not giving up. It'd realising that I don't need certain people and the drama they bring.

Well leaving that aside, the past three days have been horrible, with extreme aches arising from my fever. At one point of time on Friday, I couldn't even walk properly because of the muscle aches between my hips and thighs. What I thought was already too terrible didn't just stop there. I think I did pretty badly for my interview later in the afternoon. Was it due to my fever, my injuries? No, what I thought was that I'm giving myself too much excuses. Yesterday how I performed was just as how I would have performed without fever and aches. I was really shocked at some point of time during the interviews, being thrown with some questions that were rather disheartening to hear. Well, it's all over now. I can only tell myself that even though I might not be the best candidate available, well at the very least, I've done my best. I do not really wish for anything at this point of time, because expectations lead to disappointments, and by not expecting, you'll feel less disappointed. Even if I'm not nominated to be in the executive committee, but I'll be proud of myself to have picked up courage to participate in the interview. Whatever the result is, after all, what has been told by my seniors, I'll reflect and pick up those learning points. Like what he said: "After this feedback session, I want to see changes."

Something like that, I thought, I will do them proud, because I want a team that loves one another, a team that has no divisions, and a team that has good communication.

Thoughts aside for now. I'm boarding soon in a few days time. No more waking up at 545am in the morning, something I'd look forward to, despite the facilities. Boarding, a total new experience for me. I shall keep myself positive and look ahead with optimism. Best of luck to myself and those boarding (:!

#103 - A Brand New Dawn

A brand new dawn, the start of a new life.

Seasons have come to an end, no matter what, I will cherish it with all my heart.

The invaluable experiences gained from these matches, even though the bench was warmed continuously, I would say, the experience is priceless. Today marks the end of the seasons and there's actually a tinge of reminiscence in me. I wish we could go back in time, when the seasons were just approaching. Now, regardless of win or lose, I'm really proud of my seniors. To have come so far, with only a year's experience, this history is to never be erased. Such indelible experience, a piece of my memory. Forever, I'll remember and pick up learning lessons from it, and ace my hockey skills. I'm really proud of my seniors, for that they have given their best. All the best to your future endeavours,  we juniors hereby promise to do you proud ~! (:

28.04.2012

A rather familiar date, it again marks the brand new dawn for me as well. 

I've officially turned 17! 

Sounds kinda old to be 17, wished that I could stay younger for a little more, just a little more. Well in life, you can never spend your childhood twice. Yet, I cherish this growing up process, as I get to observe how this special day is being spent with different people, at different places with different feelings.

I remembered, my 12th Birthday was rather one that should not even be shared about, it was horrible. I got scolded and caned for not being able to do my homework correctly, and I teared the whole day. Well, looking on the bright side, this is only 1/16 of my previous birthdays.

As I grow up, things changed, so do the people around me, and the amount of love I receive. To have received so many wishing and blessings from my old friends, what more could I ask for. I miss those days when all of us could celebrate this special day together, when my family members ain't there for me. Eating a cake alone seems horrible, with no one to sing you a song to liven up the atmosphere.

A simple dinner is what I ask for. 

Will there be one this year? I don't know. Perhaps I've to revisit my priorities, Hockey, friends & family. Who will I be celebrating my birthday with? Who will be part of my memory? 

I really don't know. All I wish for is something unique and different this year. 

Simple wishes, which I ask for.

1.To have a blessed life in NJC.

2.To be able to perform well in academics and not be placed in the risk of students at risk. A minimum of 4Cs is what I ask for.

3.To be able to ace my hockey skills, bringing myself to a whole new level, with increased intensity.

4.To be well-liked by more people and to be able to influence their lives.

5. To be in good health for long

6. To have friends who care for me

7. To have hockey team mates who care

Other wishes may seem just as important, but I don't think I should list them in my priorities. This year, how would my birthday be? I really don't know. There's training tomorrow from 2-4pm, and cultural mapping with class. May this be the time I outshine myself and enjoy myself as well.

Well, at least I hope.

That's all, gonna turn in now (:

#102 - Time Management

A month and half approximately since I last updated. 

That's around the period of time I've been in HOCKEY (:

Well, things haven't been going quite smoothly I guess?

There are so many events ongoing in the school at this time, and seriously it irks me, especially the lecture tests.

Yes, you're right. I'm back here again with the same thing
: JC LIFE IS TOUGH :(

Things like Speech Day and etc, they just went like crazy even though I liked the "holiday" given. 

Then it was FUNTASIA(|||). Pretty much exceeded my expectations I guess? I thought it would've been a failure since nobody even wanted to purchase the coupons from us. Surprisingly, NJ proved me, or rather us wrong. Thousands of strangers flocked into the school like some mad seagulls. 

Totally, mouth left agape.

It was kind of great actually, well at least for my class, since we were doing the sales of STICKIES. Guess what. We are among thr Top 5  in the school to have earned at least $3000! 

Perfect, this means that I'm getting back my $5 from the school, who gives a damn about that 3k now!

Haha!

So anyway, just a shot from FUNTASIA (:

And, if you've noticed, I changed my Spectacles. Like finally, actually no. I changed it cause my previous spectacles broke and my previous previous one look a little weird on me, that's for sure!

Well, I've gone through numerous changes as March took its lead. I've joined HOCKEY (: That's my current passion and motivation now! To be in a Sports CCA and school team for the first time, the competition and most definitely the level of excitement is there! I've also gotten my braces, so no more toothless smiles, sooner or later. 

Great changes, but great changes also comes with great falls. yes, I'm failing my tests. Oh well, at the very least, I knew I'm as if falling into an abyss, but now, I'm motivated. I know that there are many people out there who actually care for me, and via twitter, I've felt the love of humanity. Thanks people, you've made my day. Though Tuesday might have been one of those days when I felt very down, yet it is definitely the day I started picking up. I've gotta adapt to such rapid changes and brace myself to a higher level, understanding things at my own pace and then slowly giving every single component in school an ace. 

Time has been rather tight for the past two weeks, to be rushing for Project Work and studying for tests, while having Hockey on Monday, Wednesday & Friday, not forgetting AIM(S) on Thursday. I've totally no time to be dated out by people, neither do I have time to self assess, and improve myself academically, as well as athletically. I think my passion for Hockey is stronger than my academics, yet it may not be a bad thing. I actually use hockey to help me calm my mind after doing badly for tests, I think it really helps. All those hits, flicks, a great way to vent your anger and frustration.

Although I'm the newest member in Hockey and probably the least experienced one, nevertheless I gave hockey a try and now it is within my main priority list. To be the last one entering and learning and yet being selected by Coach, simply Awesome, although I always get benched during matches. I really want to give the matches a go, and show coach that I'm not that useless as well. Oh well, gonna train hard to prove it to him that I'm not a weak link in hockey. 

Hits have been improving after all, I don't see myself lacking behind that much as before. This passion that burns inside me, simply awesome. I'm so motivated to play hard and win for NJ next year. AWESOME~

Super tired now~ Shall turn in! 

CHEERS (:

#101 - Terra Terra Ombaba!

"Terra Terra Terra Terra

Ombaba~" (:

I finally found some time to update again! So hello to everyone!

I know my blog's kinda dead now, but please continue to read my blog. I'm desperately using all methods to dig out time from my packed schedule, but to no avail.

Yeah, so~

Last Friday was Track Meet!

It was a great kick-off and ending for Terra. We managed to come in first place for the first event, last event, and most of the events in the middle as well!

It was indeed a historical moment for Terra, to have moved up 3 positions from 6th to 3rd this year, if I'm not wrong. We're actually quite satisfied to be in top 3! Tug-of-War was really great, with all other houses cheering for Terra instead! 

Victory went to us, and I'm so proud of fellow Terrarists! 

I apologise for being unable to contain my happiness, but it was really a euphoric moment when we were announced as third place. I really hope that this would mean that we would move over to have a seat at the grandstand instead of the open area.

Terra Terra Ombaba!

Pictures for Track Meet!

I don't know if it's my eyes, but the brown colour of my hair is quite obvious here :/

It's currently the March holidays, but like before, it never felt like one. March holidays ain't a march of holidays, but holidays of March. 7 days, too short it seems. Yes, definitely for me, with tutorials that piled up to my height, and busy schedules.

Let me just show you how my holidays will be spent, or rather wasted away.

12.03.12

- Hockey Training (9am-11am)

- Dental Appointment (11am-1am)

Things to be completed: Chemistry Tutorial, if possible Mathematics.

13.03.12

Things to be completed: Mathematics Topics 2,3,4. Econs (2 Essays, 2 Essay plans)

14.03.12

- Og Outing (12pm~)

15.03.12-16.03.12

- Hockey Camp (2D1N)

- Chemistry Lecture (9am-11am)

- Class Outing (Night, after camp)

17.03.12

- Dental Appointment (9.30am ~)

18.03.12

- Rest day after dental appointment

Finish up any homework left undone.

I know that it looks as if  I'm free for most of the days, but believe me. The amount of energy channelled to other activities can literally make you exhausted. Even if you have energy, motivation is lacking. That's how tough Jc life is, and I've definitely flunked my Chemistry and Physics test. Omg, wts.

Till here, (:

#100 - Reminiscing, simply awesome.

It's 2am again! Yeah, I'm back home.

A good 5 hr catchup with my 'siblings' again. 

It's the weekend again.

Tutorials just kept piling up and they turn my mind off.

Feels so good to go out and relax a little, just before life gets too busy. 

It felt so good to be enjoying dinner with people whom you are close to, talking to them about your new life, and then maintaining contact at the same time.

Bringing up so much about those good old times, and predicting the unpredictable future, reminiscing the past, a hobby of everyone. A great dinner at PastaMania and then headed to release our stress at the Arcade. 

Too bad, there ain't basketball. Yet, the other games were fun, thanks Shireen for treating us $80 at the Arcade (:

Sorry for making you spend a bomb! 

Haha. Yeah, after 'donating' to the arcade, headed to the Coffeeshop nearby. It'd long since I sat in a coffeeshop, like maybe a year? 

I don't know, neither can I remember how long it was.

The food @ 302 is not bad, and that explains our long waiting time, just for an available table.

Shared a fried food platter, consisting of many weird stuff. My treat (:

Thanks Yuhui, for treating us beverages by the way (:

It's so awesome to just go for dinner, then supper. I really miss the period of time after 'O's, where we could  stay out late at night, buying supper and slacking at void decks till 1-2am. Today brought me back so much, to the time, when I probably felt the greatest sense of happiness. 

To be carefree, having no worries over anything, simply the best time in life.

Now looking back I wish I could rewind. Sounds familiar? 

Haha. 

I feel like going back to the past so much, when motivation seems to overwhelm me all the time. Unlike now, studying seems to be way easier in the past. You get motivation easily from the friends around you. Right now, I can hardly feel any of these. 

I really want a blissful life in High School, and I look forward to make it possible. 

Anyway, just to share with you guys a great news. 

I'm currently in 12SH12, what an easy to remember number. 12-12

Well, I can say that I really love this class, even though it's not as much as how I love my clique of 15 people. I guess I'll just have to adapt more, appreciate more and request for less.

2 years, a time just nice for us to be bonded.

After all, everyone has something that resemble my clique friends.

I should just accept more and expect less.

Expectation leads to Disappointment. 

So expect less, disappoint less.

Yeah by the way, I think this statement of mine sounds cool (I-don't-know-why).

You are the artist of your life.

You decide you future.

So tell yourself,

"Procrastinating is just like dieting. It can always start tomorrow."

Cheers (: